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Thursday 19 February 2015

I saw my father cry

On a sunny evening as I was leaving work, I received a call from my dad. I thought he was just calling to say hello, like he always does. We talked as I walked to Jinja road to get a taxi to Kireka.
While I stood by the roadside to cross the road, I saw his car parked on the other side of the road. I thought it was just a similar car, only to see him wave at me.
I could not believe that I was actually seeing him, because he had not informed me about his visit. And here he was, waiting for me.
This was like a day dream, since we had talked the previous night, and he never told me about his plans to travel from Kasese.
When I asked him what he was doing there, he said; “I came to see you and I was willing to wait until you finish your work, so we can go and have supper together.”
I got into the car and he drove. We chatted along the way and it was just about home, mom and my little brother and sister. He gave me a piece of gonja, which he had bought from Mega standard supermarket.
We then started talking about how Gonja is now sold in supermarkets. Little did I know that the day would end into a serious talk of sorts?
So when we got to the pork joint in Namugongo, we ordered for our meal and drinks. He took his usual drink, Tusker malt and I took Stoney.
He sipped on his drink as he told me about his journey, and then he paused and said… “Clare I want you to first finish your Degree and then the rest can follow.”
“You see the other day I attended a workshop and I shared a hotel room with a colleague who told me of how he had been having an affair with a campus girl.” My dad narrated.
“The man is married and he told me about how this young girl actually believes that the two will get married. I could not believe what I was hearing from this man, I actually called a friend,” he added as a tear rolled down his cheek.
He was disheartened by his friend’s behavior and all he thought about was his little princess Clare.
“Our workshop ended yesterday, and I thought I should come and pay you a visit because my heart could not settle until I saw you,” he said.
I could not believe I was having this kind of conversation with my dad, since we never talk about such issues. But I realized that while we out there in the world, our parents are having sleepless nights thinking about us.
He could not hold back his tears, and I could see it in his eyes that he was concerned and worried about me.
“When my friend me about their affair, I could not help but cry. I thought about you the whole night and I could not sleep at all. And I said, is this what you people do when we let you live as individuals?” he recalled.
But I told him to keep calm, because I love him to the moon and back.
One think I learn't for sure that is that while am at school playing games, my parents are not sleeping but thinking about how am surviving in in the big world.
How I wish and pray that my fellow girls and the boys out there should appreciate their parents, because those people sacrifice a fortune to keep you placed somewhere in the world.




Thursday 5 February 2015

FUMBLING HEART


Cursed from the realm of harmony
Our childhood seemed a hard escape from the lions den.
Blankets of gunshots embraced the skies of our loneliness
Ripping our hearts apart like an endangered voyage
Our teary dark origin where death owned our loved ones,
Threatens our hope to grow
And defines a smile
Like a hill far across the fierce rivers.

Our home is hell take us with you
Smile with us our tears will dry
Give us some bread our fears will go
Give us a home where you think we are safer
Far from this nest of dry blood
Give us a hand to school like the city child
Show us the earth that is as calm as the sky
Fill our cup with the wisdom of hope
That we can learn to save our generations to come,
Give us a bed for a slumber of peace
Reveal to us that God who can heal our pain
Silence these fumbling hearts
And make us whole again.
We parted by the sound of death
They took east as we dashed to the north
We separated with the hope to unite someday
Now that the gun is just in memories
Fill for us this maze
That we might reunite with those that make us whole.

Rude within their hearts
Evil commanding their ego
They burnt our homes,
And our sweet belongings where gulped
By the evil mouth of fire
Find us work,
We promise to labor and make that, that we shall call our own.

I peep through your windows,
I see blankets kept without a rib to warm in the night,
I need only a piece, to shield my neck and feet
Tomorrow when God tells you share,
Bring me a piece on the streets, I’ll be waiting.

We shifted to the city outskirts
Mama died of hunger yesterday
Daddy needs a pill for malaria
Tomorrow he might be dead.
My health can be your wealth
Show me a kit of medication.

We are out in the ghettos
Infested by the habits of a juveniles life
We need to share life with the angels
So our darkness will dissolve in the light.
We are weak but can be strong
We are out on the streets, in the dirty ghettos,
In the diseased camps,
We are the hearts stretching out to get a saving chance.
Truly fumbling hearts!